So there are times in my life, usually due to sleep deprivation, fibro fog, medication, distraction or whatever, where I have my mind on something while I’m walking through the house and am so focused on what I am trying to accomplish, that I somehow forget for a minute about where I am in space and time, and BAM!!! Well, today that happened. I had been packing an order, had a packing slip in my hand that I was looking at while walking, and I unintentionally veered “right” and walked right into the corner of the plaster wall doorway as I was heading to the other room. Plowed right into it. BAM!
Unfortunately it somehow hit me on the back side of my upper arm (tender point) and I just about screamed out loud. In fact I may have screamed, I’m not all that sure, because the pain was so intense and so sudden that the only thing my brain could process was that extremely RUDE shot of pain that came out of nowhere. For several stunned minutes, I just sat down at the table with my head in my hands, rocking back and forth….and glancing every few minutes at the angry red mark on my arm.
The initial pain lasted almost 5 minutes before it began to abate. I looked at it in the bathroom mirror and started wondering how long it would be before the black, blue & purple colors would begin to show up. There would be no way I would not get a bruise out of this.
If you have fibro, you know about tender points. If you’ve ever walked into the corner of a doorway, hitting directly ON a tender point, you know of the incredible agony of which I speak.
I fell into a pissed off mood for awhile, questioning in my mind the unanswerable question, WHY do I always have to feel pain….WHY?? All day, every day, and then something like this happens, that only adds to my suffering. Yes….I had a pity party. I was pissed. Grrrrrrr!! 😦
I am over it now. I am beyond the self pity and the anger. But I have to admit I still sometimes wonder. haha
Even though I am sure my lack of good sleep lately is a big factor in accidents like this happening, I know there is something with fibromyalgia that causes me to lose my balance, or run into things…like corners of tables, door jambs, etc. I seem to sometimes start to teeter off to one side for no apparent reason, almost like I’m drunk. But I don’t drink. So, I am sure it has something to do with fibro. I’ve had this “thing” happen so many times for so many years that the only thing I can attribute it to is fibro. I start to walk and whoa….!!! Like, where the heck is my equilibrium?? WTH? I feel like such a damn klutz! LOL
So anyway, I will try to keep a little more alert next time I walk through a doorway. Will try not to veer left or right. And I’ll let you know about the bruise….. 🙂